Love Yourself

(04.01.10)

Height: 5'9" Weight: 143 lbs. Waistline: 32 in Chest: 34 in. Glute: 36 in. With very thin legs. Very unfit. A former lactose intolerant and insomniac. A frustrated runner, a former ultimate frisbee athlete that still has a lot to improve on. Can't speak english well, has 3 cats when he want 6, wants a sporting canine when he has a soft and sweet pet dog. Took up 2 courses in college and still wants more. Yep! That's me!

BUT...

I Love Myself.

I have learned to accept who I am, what I'm not and what I have and don't have and that is what I think is the secret to truly loving yourself. I still wish for something else or better, but I let go of that and just believe that I'll get them at the right time. Or maybe I won't get them at all... And that's fine with me I guess... :)

Since I started being contended, I had less frustrations, I mean, sure I still want to study some more, I still want an agility dog, I still want to run faster and I still want big tight glutes! But guess what!? Doesn't mean I can't run my dog even if he's not athletic? Doesn't mean I can't take up another course in the future, it doesn't mean I can't practice running whenever I can? And it doesn't mean I cant improve my physique when I get the chance right?

So go on! Accept who you are, how you look, who you're not, WHAT your not and live a life that's worth living! It is in that way you can only, truly love yourself Ü

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Dear Jerry

(02.22.10)

Dear Jerry,

Remember the last time we were together? I think that was way back April 2002! That day was so much fun! It was our graduation day! That day we finished high school! Though we continued to be friends, exchanging messages and all, I never really got the chance to see you again until last Wednesday. You were wearing formal attire, more formal than what we were wearing in our graduation, you had some make-up on, you were so quiet, you were so still, you were, in a coffin.

Jerry, I really don't know what to say, I closed my eyes and tried to pray. Instead, flashbacks of very happy memories flooded my head and left me with no words to utter. This very moment, I'm still not sure on how to continue writing this letter, the more I try to think of what to write, the more my head goes blank. Maybe I just have to give in to what my mind wants to do and reminisce on our happy times... Here it goes...

I was always looking forward to the end of the class coz we usually hang out in your place and do our home work! We even made our mock-up graduation cap there! We spent some good times in your house with the gang, Edna, Clarla, Donna, Paul, Rainer, Abu, Nap, and Christopher. It was pure fun, except the part when Nap and I got held up right after saying goodbye to you at the gate! That was scary! haha! Ok here's a good one, It was you who taught me the song "Cry" by Mandy Moore! I was arguing that her song "Crush" was her best song yet, you said"No! Not till you hear that song, I Know you'll like it when you hear it!" I said "When and where did you hear it?" you said "in the 2002 MTV Asia music awards, Mandy Moore even sang it with Regine Velasquez!" Haha you know me so well you even had to stress the name Regine Velasquez as if It meant that if Regine sang it then it must be a really good song! Few days later you learned the tittle of the song, bought a copy of her album and played it when were (yet again) in your house. I didn't fall in love with the song instantly but eventually I did.

Some good times there huh Jer? I was hoping it never ended but it did. Or maybe I just have to think that our good times were put to a pause since you have to rest and will resume again when we get to where you are now. Come to think of it Jerry, you seem to be so far now but it is just breath that separates us. Soon we will meet again and will continue having good times as planed. But this time it will be forever.

I love you so much Jerry, my hats off to you for being who you are, kind, loving, you are a positive energy that fills every inch of space that you walk into. Back when we were in senior high I was having a very hard time finishing school and working at the same time to afford it, but with you everything was just simply easier, there was always hope when you are around.

Till the very day I see you again Jerry, remember that I love you so so much. I will miss you for a couple of years. I will see you again. God I don't even want t end this letter. So till we meet again.


-Bradford/Bapot/Diosa

I Survived the Maturity Test!

I crossed path with 2 people I wasn't ready to see just last night... Knowing Brad (that's me!) my initial reaction would be to get really mad and just go somewhere quiet. BUT I DIDN'T! yes! I stayed and did not get mad and went through the night gracefully! I'm so proud of myself!

Going through it wasn't easy it was painful to see them again, I just want to clarify, I'm not mad, just hurt. but I think I know the reason why I surprisingly acted differently... more mature in a sense...

#1. The 2 people involved in this story (aside from me) were good friends of mine. I'm hurt really really bad but I'm way passed being mad... yes I was mad but I can't stay mad at them forever cause I still care for them, I'm everything but a hypocrite so believe me you two, I still love you both.

I miss telling stories with the girl sitting at the passenger seat of my team captain's car whenever we hitch a ride with him, that was fun! totally miss that.

And the guy? he's just the person I dear the most. That should explain it right?

#2. Second reason and maybe the biggest reason would be the death of my Cha-Cha... she (for 10 long years) was my world, she was by best friend, my first born child, she'd listen to my boring stories when no one else would. She comforts me like no other blanket could. That's why I love you so... There can never be any experience in my life that could be more painful than your passing. You have been gone for a year now and your still helping me out. You made me stronger now I have improved as a person, and that's all because of you love.

What I'd give to see you in my dreams every night love, your always, ALWAYS in my heart.

Sorry guys, no pics on this, just some mini achievements and drama...

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